why is it that i always get into these kind of situations? one would say it's normal, but i don't think so. i wish i still had my ex, David. we broke up cuz we never really got to see each other much, and he was SUPPOSSED TO GO TO MIAMI!! when i was of the belief that he was going i didn't wanna fight to keep him cuz it really wouldn't have made sense to do that...cuz he would leave in an event. now that he's staying i really want him back!! it's not because he's the last boyfriend i had that i'm saying this, but he's honestly the best that i've had. the breakup was rough, and i really didn't expect it. now we don't talk and he's probably erased my very existence from his memory. I MISS HIM!!! AND I WANT HIM BACK!!! i don't want anyone else, and i'm afraid to call him, cuz when we broke up (over the phone) he asked that i don't have any contact with him. i totally trusted him, with all i had, and while we never got to the point of loving each other, i honestly believe that i was damn near close to loving him, had he given me the chance to be with him. this might sound like another 'break-up' story to anyone who's reading this but i just had to get it off my chest somehow. i know he won't personally read this because he doesn't know about DA and i kinda prefer it that way.my feelings never died, but he hoped they would have but they've only gotten stronger and as days go by i miss him more!! a part of me wants to forget it and move on!!! and the other part just wants him back!!!
to all readers....if you've got someone, and the conditions under which your relatiionship is functioning isn't the best, fight it out if its really worth it!! cuz if you lose that person you will be crushed beyond imagination, you life will feel and be sccrewed, and where once was a heart will be empty an hollow!! that's just my message..at least for now